Tuesday, December 14, 2010

12.14.10 :: 2 weeks old

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Quentin is 2 weeks old today.

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And he actually did not cry once during his bath today. This is rare...! Both Sean & Mackenzie cried for at least the first month or two in every bath they took. Quentin was relaxed, and very alert the entire bath, and actually enjoyed it.

Since I was car-less today - and all my errands and stuff that I needed to do were put on hold (Jamie needed my van for work today and I am not comfortable driving his 6 speed in winter (I'm only comfortable with a 5 speed)) I decided today would be a good day to do a photo shoot with Quentin. Enjoy:

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Tonight I was able to get out of the house with Quentin.

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And I actually got to knit a few rows! I started Milo for Quentin in newborn size.
I bet by the time I finish it - he still will have to grow into it.

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It was nice to get out for a bit, and go to the Montreal Knitting Guild's Christmas Party. Quentin was decked out in hand knits, and enjoyed himself at the party too. I mean, he slept through the entire thing and you wouldn't have known there was a baby there...

Monday, December 13, 2010

12.13.10 :: 206 weeks old

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Sean is 206 weeks old today.
He is so excited to turn 4.
I'm not sure I'm ready for him to turn 4.
Though... I have no choice.

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Life in this house is certainly not boring.

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With my two toddler monkeys around!

In Numbers:
- My kids were born at 38 (Sean), 37 (Mack) and 36 (Quentin) weeks gestation.
- My kids were born 6-8-10 (Sean in 2006, Mack in 2008 and Quentin in 2010).
- I have 174 emails to respond to in my inbox. Make that 175.
- I have 81 episodes of Oprah on my PVR to watch.
- I'm wondering if it's bad that my purse weighs more than my newborn?
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The 2 am feedings are not so bad, and I'm usually fine at the 7/8 am feedings, but why are the 4/5 am feedings so brutal? I'm usually nodding out, and feeding him in my sleep (while sitting up). I cannot wait until he starts sleeping more. I am sure he could do longer than 2-3 hour stretches, but because of dealing with his weight right now, I am not supposed to let him go past 2-3 hours at a time. My alarm clock is definitely not my friend right now.
- Quentin gained 80 grams from Saturday to today (2 days). Usually newborns gain 20-25 g per day and Quentin on his high calorie diet gained 40 grams per day. He's now 2.4 kg (2400g) or 5 lbs 4.5 oz. The nurse that came today to weigh him told me to keep doing what I'm doing, and he'll continue to thrive. Hoping to never have a 4 lb and change baby again. I'm hoping to get him somewhere between 5 and a half to 6 lbs by next week. I think Quentin can do it. Must get him out of those preemie outfits (that he's actually swimming in... they're so large on him!)

Today's Link Love:
- Love this milk carton wallet idea!
- Love this newborn photo. I've been researching ideas to photograph Quentin. Planning to do a major photo shoot with him... just working out the details for a backdrop. (I used to have one, but it got ruined when we moved, unfortunately).
- Oy, love this newborn photo. Precious.
- Ok, ok, ok, look at this face.
- This newborn made me giggle.
- This is well... very creative.
- 5 bonus points for Pampers: WelcomeMembers5

(I'm house bound tomorrow, (car-less), so stay tuned for those virtual baby shower photos I promised you!)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

12.12.10

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The every 2-3 hour wake-ups are not so bad, especially since I get to look at this face while feeding him. His skin is so soft, and I just love the bonding time.

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Today was a lazy Sunday and in the evening we celebrated Chanukah at my parents house as well as Jamie's birthday. It was a quiet dinner, and the boys got spoiled with gifts.

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The thing I need to tackle now is getting out of the house with 3 kids. I had finally figured out how to get out of the house with 2 kids - on time (ish) - but now... 3?! Especially with a newborn? It's a tad hard. But I am sure I'll figure it out. Just need to figure out what works and what doesn't and come up with a system. Trial and error. I'm sure we'll figure it out.

Just like I'm trying to figure out how to get some knitting time in my day. I will get there... I keep telling myself! It will come. There are so many movies that have just come out on DVD that I can't wait to finally watch. At least I can watch movies while feeding Quentin.... just can't knit and do that at the same time, unfortunately. Sometimes I wish I had more hands than I actually do. (And more hours in the day). Don't you?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

12.11.10

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Quentin was dressed too cute today, I had to take some pictures. I absolutely love his winter boots that he's wearing. And the hat he's wearing, is a sneak peak of something Quentin got in my Virtual Baby Shower. (Thank you Sarah for knitting Quentin this hat!) The awesome leg warmers that came with the hat, won't fit Quentin for a good while, but once he fits in them, I'll definitely photograph him wearing them! Today was the first time Quentin was dressed up in clothes rather than being in a sleeper. He was going to go watch his oldest brother skate, so we had to get all dressed up!

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Mackie has been obsessed with my camera lately. He wants to hold it and use it. He was very upset this morning that I wouldn't let him use it. I think we might actually be getting Sean an extremely inexpensive digital camera (boxing day sales maybe!?) and then we'll give Mack Sean's Fisher Price digital camera to play with. Do I have 2 future photographers in my house? They're both obsessed with taking photos on the toy digital camera.



Sean impressed me today with his skating. It's been a few weeks since I've been to watch him skate, and has he improved majorly! (And please ignore Mack begging me while being very uspet to use my digital camera).

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On our way home from Sean's lesson, we stopped off to get Sean's skates sharpened. Jamie wanted to me to check out "the experience" of getting your skates sharpened. Apparently Seymour is the guy to go to to get your skates sharpened. He's the skate doctor. He's a pretty funny guy, Seymour. His shop is a wee tiny garage behind some building near our house, and it's pretty nifty in there. He knows how to properly sharpen & contour a blade, and I am sure I'll see the difference next week when Sean gets back on the ice. Seymour even has a mouse as a pet who has a house made out of a hockey skate. It's too cute.

A CLSC nurse came to our house today, and the good news is that, on the high calorie diet, Quentin gained 20 grams from yesterday. Today he weighs 5 lbs 1.5 oz. Luckily I don't have to take a trip to the Montreal Children's Hospital, and I have to keep doing what I'm doing. And by keep doing what I'm doing - is the high calorie diet, and waking him to feed every 2-2.5 hours - which is really brutal. I ended up having to take a nap all afternoon (as soon as the nurse left until supper tonight). I couldn't keep my eyes open.

I also never got around to taking the surgical tape strips off yesterday, as I ran out of time. I was able to find some time to have my mom come over today to help me take them off. I don't know why I was so scared of having them off - it wasn't so bad. We cleaned my scar and it's looking very good, healing quite nicely. Thankfully. It also feels so much better now that they've been removed. My skin feels freer and not as itchy.

Today's Link Love:
- This nifty holiday idea.
- A bonus point for Huggies Enjoy the Ride Rewards: BJWNCKSTWLFNPGB.

My email inbox is out of control again, I have Ravelry message to reply to... so if I owe you a note or an email or a message... stay tuned... it's coming soon. I promise. Personal time? What's that? I'm dying to knit a stitch, read some of my book... you know... when I get a moment.

Friday, December 10, 2010

12.10.10 :: 35 Years

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Today is Jamie's 35th birthday.

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The boys enjoyed helping Nana top the cake with whipping cream & strawberries. However, the strawberries ended up going one on the cake, one in their mouths. My boys love strawberries.

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For dinner, we had some special guests come tonight. Jamie's step-cousin and her boyfriend had a baby boy just 8 weeks ago. It was nice to finally meet their son Noah. It's amazing, the difference between 11 lbs and 5 lbs. I can't wait until Quentin and Noah can really play together at family functions. It'll be nice that they're close in age.

This morning, I spent a good 2 hours opening parcels that I got in the mail. A knit friend, Girlknits, hosted a virtual baby shower for me (I've never heard of a virtual baby shower before having one done for me!). I received a ton of mail over the last few weeks. Lots of it! They all said not to be opened before November 21st. I got a check list from and as the mailed arrived, I let her know from whom and checked them off my list. Then November 21st came along and I was still missing half the mail. (Still to this day there are a few missing packages that have not yet arrived). On November 21st, I was told to wait a few extra days, to see if the rest came. Then 8 days later, my water broke (Nov 29) and then Quentin was born on November 30th and I was in the hospital until I got home on Saturday, December 4th. I FINALLY got to open them all today and photograph everything. That was quite the job! It took me almost 2 hours! Then I had to go to the CLSC to get Quentin weighed (more about that in a minute). Then ran to Walmart with my mom for newborn diapers and bottles (I had to chuck all bottles that I had from Sean & Mackenzie as they were not BPA free). Then I picked up Sean & Mack from daycare with my mom and by the time I got home, our guests were just arriving. So... I have not yet had time to sit down in front of my computer and organize all the photos from my virtual baby shower to put on my blog. Stay tuned for all that over this weekend. (Most likely on Sunday). But I want to thank everyone who sent Quentin a package so very very much. It was extremely thoughtful and I can't believe how much hand knit items this kid now owns! And all the lovely gifts you guys sent for me too. That was beyond awesome of everyone. Stay tuned for my show & tell.

So, my mom was pressuring me a bit to get Quentin weighed today - she wanted to know how he was doing because he has to be a certain weight for his Brit Milah (some rabbis as I said ask for the baby to be 5 lbs 8 oz and some require the baby to be 6 lbs). So I got a hold of the nurse that came at the beginning of the week, and she wasn't able to come to me today, but I was able to go to her at the actual CLSC building near my house. From Monday to Tuesday he gained 30 grams, and unfortunately from Tuesday until today he only gained 20 grams in 3 days. This has us a bit worried, and after talking a bit with the nurse and her making some phone calls to the baby nutritionist, Quentin is now on a high calorie diet for a bit, until he can show that he's gaining enough weight at a steady pace. His weight gain over the last 3 days is rather slow. Usually by day 10, a baby is supposed to have reached their birth weight. Quentin is about 5 lbs 1 oz right now, 9 oz shy of his birth weight. Though, some say preemies take a little longer to regain their birth weight. Upon leaving today - we decided that a nurse will come visit me tomorrow, most probably at my house, (though I might have to go in to the clinic - but I will wait for a phone call) and if he doesn't gain any or sufficient amount of weight before tomorrow (in a 24 hour period) then I will have to go take Quentin to the Montreal Children's Hospital. I am absolutely praying that it does not come down to this. I will also be waking Quentin up every 2-2.5 hours to feed him, instead of letting him do 3-3.5 hours which he's been doing lately. The only thing I told the nurse that I am worried about, is him not being hungry in 2-2.5 hours and then regurgitating the food that he's eating/or being forced to eat, if he's not actually hungry.

It's going to be a long night. Setting my alarm for every 2 ish hours (from the START of the last feeding - not from when he's done eating last..!) I might be one tired mama tomorrow.

Thursday, December 09, 2010

12.09.10 :: 129 weeks old

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Mack is 129 weeks old today!

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Quentin is such a good sleeper (knocking on wood again)...
That he just wants 5 more minutes!

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Because I was extremely concerned with Quentin's weight (Monday it had dropped to 4 lbs 15 oz) and he has an extremely tiny mouth, the nurse found that he was bruising me and I was all cracked from attempting to nurse. Because Quentin was premature, and I cannot tell how much he was actually eating when nursing, or if he was even getting enough, I decided to call it a day, and formula feed him. He's much happier on formula, and we're both much happier now. I had said that I really wanted to try to nurse, but that if it didn't work out - that I wouldn't be heart broken over it. So Quentin is on Similac Advanced Neosure (formulated for premature babies) and the nice thing about it - is that it's paid for (by the gov't medical plan we're on) for the entire first year. An entire year's worth of formula for free. I couldn't believe it. I remember how much money we used to fork out for formula for both Sean & Mackenzie. I'm certainly not complaining this time!

So... things are starting to get a little bit more organized around here. I managed to go today for a long overdue eyebrow waxing that I meant to do before going into labor, but that didn't happen. I finally unpacked my hospital bags and am on top of the laundry (don't worry, I'm not doing any lifting - and I'm squatting by my knees if I have to lower myself down). There were several times today where I totally forgot that I'd even had a Csection just over a week ago. That is good and bad. Bad because I don't want to hurt myself by doing something I probably shouldn't be, if I forget, and good, because that means I'm healing. I'm definitely looking forward to not having to rely on people for lifts, etc. I really can't wait to move on past the healing stage. But it's looking good so far, and hopefully I'll be brave enough to remove the surgical tape from my wound tomorrow. (Though I need someone else to do it for me, as I have to lie down for the tape to be removed). I was instructed to remove whatever has not fallen off at the week's mark (which they were applied a week ago today). Hopefully I won't chicken out! (I had a bit of anxiety in the hospital when the nurse removed the clips from my surgery - once she removed the first one, it wasn't so bad, but of course she removed the easiest one first - the outside ones didn't hurt at all - but the middle clips - those burned my skin upon removing them! Ouch!) I guess you can say I am a bit of a scared-y cat when it comes to surgical/medical stuff.

Today's Link Love:
- Love this feeding tool! Never seen it before!?
- Love this image.
- This is a pretty darn cool chair!
- Love love love love this necklace!

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

12.08.10

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Quentin and I decided to venture out today for a bit with my mom. (I won't be able to drive for a while - hoping to be back in my car by the end of the year though - we'll see how I feel). Quentin looks soooo cozy in his car seat, all bundled up. And of course, he's been wearing his Twist Hat a lot. I think he'll be wearing it until it no longer fits him. I didn't get all the errands I wanted to accomplished today, so I think we'll head out a little bit more tomorrow. I hate having to rely on a ride, which is a downfall to having a Csection.

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I promised Rhoda a photo of Quentin wearing the outfit she sent him. He fits into it perfectly right now and he doesn't have too much to wear, since he's swimming in most newborn outfits. He's a tiny little 5 lb baby. He will have plenty to wear once he actually grows in size - but until then... he's limited on his preemie wardrobe. (And it's so hard to find in stores too).

I can't seem to keep my eyes open past 10 pm these days. I find myself falling asleep on the couch or in bed, while trying to watch tv. I've been trying organized since getting home from the hospital. Unfinished business from before my water broke, things I wanted to organize or clean. I can't do too much at once, because of my Csection, so slowly things are getting done. I am getting enough sleep though - Quentin is a very good sleeper. He does get up every 3 hours to eat, but it's usually 11pm (which I am still up) and then in the middle of the night it's just 2 am and 5 am (ish). Then the next feeding is in the morning when I'm already up with Sean & Mack for the day. Sleep is good though! I'm certainly not complaining.

He's still not eating as much as I'd like him to be - and I'm hoping that he has been gaining weight. I hope to get him weighed by the end of the week, if not I'll wait until the free clinic at the local CLSC on Tuesday to get him weighed - but I kind of which I knew how he was doing in that department. It's the one scary thing about having a tiny newborn.

Today's Link Love:
- Love this felt cookie tutorial.
- Love this crochet triangle garland!
- Love this doily garland too!

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

12.07.10 :: 1 week old

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Quentin is a week old!
(Newborns look like old men, don't they?)

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Today I was snowed in, and my hubby had my car (not that I can drive right now anyhow (yet)) and I convinced my mom to pick me up before going to pick up the boys from daycare. I wanted to bring Quentin to the daycare, as Sean & Mack's teachers have been asking about him. I couldn't believe that we got all 3 of them in the back of my mom's car. A little bit of a tight fit but we managed. I had to grab a photo of the 3 of them lined up in the car.

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Today I made Shepard's Pie for dinner. I actually did not follow any recipe at all. I had never made it myself, and Jamie just basically told me the way he makes it - and I altered it a bit. It was quite easy actually. I think the only thing that was a tad hard was mashing the potatoes because of my Csection. I guess the motion of actually mashing them made me a bit sore. It turned out delicious, and now we have leftovers! I was begged last night to make it again. I don't think I'll make it too often though, because potatoes are rather fattening to eat. Jamie and I agreed that as soon as my Cesection is healed and I am cleared from the doctor, that we will start getting back into shape together. (I like this plan). (New Years Resolution!?)

I am really starting to feel like my old self. I'm talking pre-pregnancy, pre-miscarriage self. I feel like I was not myself this entire pregnancy, whether it was the hormones, or what, I don't know. But I'm really starting to feel better. I know the last few weeks of my pregnancy I couldn't concentrate on much either. I find my concentration and my patience now are much better than they were just a week ago.

Quentin has been an awesome baby so far (knock on wood). He's a really good sleeper (can I say he's quite boring and all he does is sleep right now?) and barely cries. He'll only cry when he's absolutely starving. Though, most of the times, it's me waking him up to feed, because he's on a strict feeding schedule due to his weight.

Knitting time!? Haven't really had any time since getting home from the hospital. Reading time? Yeah, not really either. I have watched some TV though (while feeding Quentin) but if it's at night, I tend to pass out while watching TV. He's really only getting up twice at night (11pm feeding - I'm still up usually, 2 am and 5 am are the 2 key hours in the middle of the night we're up eating). I try to go to bed after his 11 pm feeding, to get in a few extra hours, though I've always been a night owl, so this has been a tad hard.

Monday, December 06, 2010

12.06.10 :: 205 weeks old

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Sean is 205 weeks old today.

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I finally got to celebrate Chanukah at home.

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Last night we took some family photos with the menorah.
(Yes, we were all wearing Habs tshirts - except for Quentin who needs to grow into his)
Sean & Mack just got their Habs tshirts yesterday for Chanukah.

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Last night Quentin also got his first bath at home. He was bathed once while we were in the hospital before he ended up in the incubator.

Some tid bits from last week:

Before my water broke, I had called my GP. She wasn't in & booked solid for the next day but spoke to Jamie's cousin who is the secretary there, and told me that if I get no where with my OB, to call her back, and she'll see if my GP could squeeze me in tomorrow (for the hacking cough I had before going into the hospital). In that phone call I learned that the clinic that my GP works out of - is closing it's doors in February. (Just my luck with doctors or what!?) My GP is still keeping her patients, just not sure where she will be working out of yet. I am guessing I'll know more come Sean's 4 year check up in December (which at the same time is Quentin's first check-up). I actually in the end ended up being able to book an appointment with my original OB on her last day (Nov 30) before she leaves on Maternity. I was glad I was able to book it with her, and honestly, I was going to discuss with her at the same time, that new OB she had me see on the Friday before my water broke. However, I never made it to that OB check-up as I was already admitted to the hospital (and actually, my appointment was for 10:30 am and Quentin was born at 10:27 am). Ironically the new OB was on call when my water broke. I kind of laughed in her face and said "See... I evict them early". (Though, I kind of wish Quentin had stayed in one more week, maybe we could have avoided the whole nursery/incubator/IV/Monitoring/Antibiotics, thing. Though, I know of a 38 and a half weeker that needed the same treatment as Quentin that was born a few days after him. So you never know). And now I have to pray that our GP doesnt end up in a clinic too far from here, and I have to switch GPs for us & the kids... yet again.

Sean said something funny a few days before I went into labor :: That food made the baby in my belly, and the ultrasound machine makes the baby grow when the doctor puts the blue stuff (gel for the ultrasound machine) on my belly and rubs it all around. Ahhh, the stuff kids come up with. He has questioned how Quentin got out of my belly - but now that I didn't end up with Vbac I can avoid the fact that some babies are born... naturally. The boys have been quite respectful of the fact that I have a "boo boo" on my tummy and they have to be careful to not touch my belly until it feels better.

The CLSC nurse came this morning and weighed Quentin. He's now 2.25 kg, which is 2250 grams, or 4 lbs 15.4 oz. Crap! That was Sean's discharge weight from the hospital (he was born 5 lbs 5 oz). I need him to gain weight, as he needs to somewhere between 5 and a half pounds to 6 lbs (depending on the mohel) for his Brit Milah. He lost more than 10% of his birth weight now (which was 5 lbs 10 oz) and I am scared that he's not going to gain weight fast enough. I fear that the nursing I was doing was not enough, and his mouth is so tiny that I don't even think he's latching properly (the nurse found bruises on my left side and it's all cracked - no fun & rather painful if you ask me). I am not sure how nursing is going to go - which is super hard for premature babies. I will let you know what I decide to do about that.

Link Love:

- Love this woman’s pantry. Can I have that in my kitchen too?
- Love this girl’s room.
- I have a 10 point Pampers Code for you: DEC2010FACEBOOK.
- Love love love this video. Oh Jason Mraz:

Sunday, December 05, 2010

It’s all about Tuesday, Nov 30th at 10:27 am

Hello!! We're alive! And finally home! It's been a long week - and have I got quite the story to tell you! Yes! We're now a family of 5! Baby boy 3 decided to come a little early! (And my hospital bag was packed and then my water broke - third time's the charm, eh?)

My water broke on Monday, Nov 29, mid afternoon. It was a high tear. When I first went into the case room at the hospital, they couldn't see that my water broke. They have this strip of paper that they use to test, and it's orange. If it turns olive green, it's amniotic fluid. At first the paper wasn't turning green, so they were just going to monitor me for a bit and then send me home. I knew my body though! They monitored me and was about to send me home. While being monitored my water broke ALL OVER the bed I was being monitored in, and they admitted me. All the primrose oil capsules I was taking and red raspberry leaf tea I was drinking did absolutely nothing. My cervix was hard as a rock (no surprise) and had to be induced (with oxytocin). I was the only one laboring all night, everyone else who had come in, had their babies before midnight on the 29th. After 18 hours of labor I was stuck at 2 cm and was at 2 cm for a long time. I labored in a jacuzzi tub for most of the night (which was fantastic as it relieved pressure off my back) but my body just couldn't relax passed dilate past 2 cm (50% effaced). I was on the highest dose of oxytocin and they couldn't give me anymore. It was already a risk to my body as I was trying for Vbac. The doctor on call Tuesday morning happened to be the head of the Gynecology department and she came in to assess. Basically she told me what I didn’t want to hear – she recommended that I have a Csection. I was still only 2 cm dilated 50% effaced by morning and he was very high up. After talking things through, I finally agreed to do a Csection, and we signed papers. I also decided that since I was having a Csection and already being cut open, that I would tie my tubes. While we were waiting for the OR (and I was being prepped for my Csection) baby boy’s heart sped up a lot and the OB said that she would have had me go into the OR soon after that anyhow, had I not agreed to do it electively. My sister's boyfriend's cousin/friend was on duty as if 8 am on Tuesday, Nov 30th, and though she didn't take my case (she felt weird to have to do internal exams on me) she was around, since I was the only one there at that point. It’s amazing how, even when you discuss what is going on, you still get nervous. I thought I would be more calm about it this time if that’s what ended up, but that’s not how my body reacted. (Mack’s Csection was emergency, so when in that stressful situation, my body freaked out and I shook the entire surgery). It’s just the same even when you are prepared for the Csection, my body shook the entire time of the surgery. It’s just too bad that they couldn’t do anything for me, and that my body was just not responding. (I did get to crochet a bit in labor - I worked on some more bookmarks. I couldn't knit though, as where they put my IV line, in my wrist, gave me very bad mobility with my hand).

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Quentin Myles was born Tuesday, Nov 30th, at 10:27 am.

After my Csection was over, Jamie was already in the nursery with the baby taking care of whatever tests that they need to do at that point. I was whisked away to recovery. I was told it would just be an hour, (like I remember it being with Mackenzie’s Csection). This time, I had a spinal instead of a double dose of epidural (Mack's Csection) and it took forever for me to move my feet (the requirement to be released back to my room). I did ask for one dose of Morphine to help with any pain that I would have once the spinal wore off (learned later on that the morphine shot made my arm bruise really badly where they injected me). The spinal made me itch for a good 24 hours after my surgery. It took a lot of benadryl to make it stop. Finally I was able to go back to my room and then had to wait for the orderly to get off his lunch break to take me back to me room. I was dying to hold the baby already, and didn’t like the fact that I ended up being in recovery for almost 2 and a half hours. (Damn shortage of staff at the hospital!)

I was finally reunited with the baby and Jamie and had a good 3 hours before things started to go badly. A nurse doing a check noticed Quentin was breathing hard. So they took him to the nursery and called in the Pediatrician that was on call. I had met him earlier on, as he was in the OR since Quentin is considered premature (born before 37 weeks). Quentin was having respiratory issues and at that point was being transferred to the Montreal Children’s Hospital (or wherever had an available place for him that have a NICU). They had a pick-up to do first for a baby with a much more urgent case, and would be by around 11-12 Tuesday evening to pick him up. He was placed in an incubator. He was given an IV (in his hand) and some doses of antibiotics. Basically the amount of air he was breathing in - he wasn't breathing back out (so there was too many CO2 bubbles in him). The pediatrician came to talk to me, and he was beyond wonderful. They ran a bunch of tests and every test that they did, showed signs of improvement, so by the time the Children’s hospital was ready to pick him up – he had improved enough to stay where we were – since the hospital I had Quentin at – does not have a NICU. (Had I realized this - I don't know if I would have chosen this hospital to deliver in - now that I think about it). They don’t even have a full time nursery (under staffed/small hospital). Anyhow, I was beyond upset. I was stuck in my bed (they wouldn’t let me out of bed until Wednesday morning when they took out my IV and catheter), and Quentin was in an incubator on IV and antibiotics in the nursery. It was heartbreaking. Very emotional. I broke down in tears. I felt helpless. Useless. I wanted to be with my baby. Jamie took some video of Quentin on my digital camera so that I could see what was going on as per the pediatrician recommendation. (You see how wonderful he was/is?)

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Me visiting Quentin on Wednesday, December 1st, in the morning after being able to get up. I was so round and swollen from the drugs they pumped into me during my surgery.

Quentin was stable overnight from Tuesday to Wednesday. Our goal Wednesday was to get him out of the incubator. I finally got him out of it by 3 pm on Wednesday (and I was already up & walking by then) and it was so hard to hold him with all the wires & tubes hanging from him. He was on a few antibiotics and an IV drip as well, all for 72 hours (which ended Friday night, Dec 3rd, 2010). Originally the IV was in his hand, but once he started to not be lethargic anymore, the IV wouldn’t stay in his tiny hand anymore, they had to shave his head and put the IV in his head. (That was Thursday, December 2nd). I was heartbroken that they had to shave part of his head to put the IV there. I guess he will be wearing a lot of hats until his hair grows in. At least it’s winter. My mom said that I should be lucky that they put the IV on the side of his head - when I was born, they put an IV in my head - smack in the middle! At least I could take pictures of Quentin from the side - and not see the IV). Quentin was showing improvements out of the incubator on Wednesday to Thursday that the pediatrician finally let him not be monitored anymore (they were monitoring his respiration, heart rate and his saturation) and released him back into my care. I was expressing milk and feeding him what he would take in a cup, syringe, syringe with a tube, however he would take it. There was one evening where he didn’t eat anything at all, as per doctor’s orders. However, he wasn’t really showing any interest in eating, as I am sure the antibiotics and IV drip were making him not want to eat. It was a little frustrating.

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Our first family photo (in the nursery while Quentin was still on the monitor/IV)

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Daddy & his 3rd son.

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Being monitored out of the incubator.

mommyQ

Skin to skin time.

machinefromhell

The darn machine that had to be re-set every hour as they could only run it for an hour at a time. This machine became my worst nightmare once he was released back into my care. And if the flow wasn't good it would start to ring out of control as well. I was so happy once he was off the IV.

Qhandface

No more pictures ma!

knittinginroom

I got a bit of knitting done on Bittersweet Vines.
Though I had to re-start it.
(Knitting in labor is not a good idea when you can't concentrate on lace!)

my3boys

The boys have been absolutely FANTASTIC with their baby brother. Here they wanted to help feed him some breastmilk in a bottle. (I'm trying to give him as much as I can).

foundhisthumb

He found his thumb! Oh no!

128wksold

This week Mack was 128 weeks old.

204wksS

And Sean was 204 weeks old.

My milk finally came in, and he latched for the first time on Friday evening (December 3rd). He was being supplemented on Similac 24 in the meantime, as it is higher in calories and they usually give this for premature babies. I am not sure how the breastfeeding will go - but I will try my best. He does still need the supplementing of formula, because of his prematurity and hopefully when the CLSC comes in the new few days to check on us (with their baby scale) he'll have gained some weight. He has a really tiny mouth, and I'm in a lot of pain. I'm not sure how this breast feeding thing will work out - but I will try. If it doesn't work out - I will not be heart broken over it... as it didn't really work out the first two times.

Once the IV came out, I just wanted to go home. It had been an extremely long week. Even though Quentin had a bit of a rough start to life, he fought it all on his own, and showed us how strong he really is. The way everything worked out – was truly a blessing. Quentin is precious and tiny (born 5 lbs 10 oz and discharged from the hospital at 5 lbs 2.89 oz) and we all love him to bits.

ridehome

On the way home from the hospital!

I got home around lunch on Saturday, and had family over all afternoon/evening. By the time our last guest left last night, I was passing out in my bed. Quentin was very good last night, and woke up just to eat/be changed. He is a really good sleeper (knock on wood) and hopefully that won't change. It feels fantastic to be home. (Yes, I even missed the internet! Along with my own bathroom, my own bed, my things, and just the comfort of my own home!)

We're now a family of 5! And I'm the Queen of the house. Hopefully all this testosterone won't be too much! I'll have to eventually get a female pet! I hope I've covered everything but I can't think if I've forgotten anything. If I think of anything I will for sure tell you later.