Feeling Great

I just got over 12 hours of sleep again, 2nd night in a row, and I am feeling great! Also, on top of it, I just had a long chat with my mum and we haven't done that in a while, so that was good. Especially since I have been mad at her for a little bit, but now I think we're cool. For now, a little while, at least. I raided my sister's closet yesterday and tried on a couple of her pairs of pants. Pants that I never thought I'd ever fit in.. One of them are even too big! I guess I've lost some weight or something, which is totally ok with me, I am totally fine with that!! Hee hee! Giggle... So I was strutting around the house last night, in my sister's fake leather pants (they are plastic or something, plus, if they were real I wouldn't wear them, because I am a vegetarian and stand by my morals and values.) Anyhow, my sister is very tall and slim and I've always envied her for her gorgeous body. Grrr! Not fair, but now I fit into her pants, and that makes me feel better about myself! So yey!

Anyhow, I've got to go clean up my room and get some food into my tummy. E's coming over after he gets off work at 4pm (in 30 minutes) but with traffic (damn this city and their construction) he'll be here by 4:30-4:45 pm latest. So I've got plenty of time still. We've got reservations (YEY!) at my fave restaurant in my area, and we're going there at 7:30pm. I have no idea what we're doing after that. Something fun, I hope! We're going out to celebrate my successful semester at school! I love being rewarded. And I am wearing one of my sister's pants that she gave me (the ones I wore last night to work and out to V&B were red and plastic (I don't know if they were supposed to imitate leather or not) and they were hot pants. But those are my sister's and I just borrowed them! The ones that I am wearing tonight, are black dressy pants, but they make me look thinner than I am, and I like them, so they are hot pants too! They are too big on my sister so those she gave to me!! :)

Speaking of success in school, here's an update. (I've learned another mark!) So that bring me up to...

Dance ... 87% (that's my new mark that I got today!)
Creative Writing ... 84%
Art Lit ... 83%
Painting ... 82%
and
French and Autobiography are both still undecided! :( I am happy so far with the marks I've received. It's been successful so far! All above 80's!

More to come later, for sure.

Oops... Fell Asleep!

When I crawled back into my cozy bed, I fell back asleep. That's ok. I know I got a few phone calls, but I don't remember what they were all about.

I don't even want to go home tonight after work anymore. My mother is not being nice and causing this huge argument. That's ok, because she thinks she can talk to me like I am 4 yrs old, and I am not taking that bullshit. No way... I am of legal age, and have been for over a year and a half, and I hate this car curfew and telling me what to do business. Yes, ok, I know, I live under their roof, but still, I am of legal age, and I shouldn't have to deal with this. They just don't want to let go, and I hate that! Argh! I think maybe instead of going out drinking tonight, maybe I will come home and watch the movie The Patriot which I taped downstairs.

Speaking of which let me go get the tape before anyone touches the VCR.

... Ok, got it!

I am so aggravated right now. My mom put me in a very bad mood. But I love my parents with all my heart, so I don't know how that all applies. Argh! Frustration. When I go and get my allergy test, and it shows that I am allergic to dogs, let's say. There is no way in hell my mom is going to give up our dog. Our dog is her pride and joy. Her life. So does that mean I get to move out? But, I can't afford it on my own... so does that mean that I get a place paid for by my parents? Aww, that would totally rock! I could move into E's place, but I don't think a) he'd want me there at his parent's house, b) I don't think I'd want to move in there. It's ok to stay there once in a while, but for good? You've got to be kidding me! c) Maybe if I get a place of my own, E will spend some nights at my new place. I'd have to get a new bed. A nice huge bed. I'd love that. But I am dreaming in colour, so I know this is all not going to happen. I guess it's nice to dream sometimes~ But if I were to move out, I'd so be ready. Plus I'd love to live in town, where it's closer to school. See, now, I'd probably want to live alone. Cuz the only person that I'd want to live with, would be E, and I don't think his parents believe in pre-marital living together. Well, actually I know that his parents don't believe in pre-marital living arrangements. Not even if we were engaged. I think it has to be wedding night, type thing. That's what happened with his sister and her husband. They official moved in the night of their wedding. They slept in their new place that night, and their honeymoon wasn't til the following week I believe.

When I get married, I either want to leave right away for my honeymoon or be isolated from the world with my new husband for a day or two. I don't know why, it's just like that. I dream too much, I swear!

Anyhow, back to the real world. My mom is causing trouble with the date that we are going out as a family (with grandparents and all) for my sister and mother's birthdays. At first she wanted to go out the 23rd. And I was upset a tad, cuz that was my Saturday night. But then I kind of agreed to that, and she said well maybe on christmas day. I blew up at her, because Christmas Day I am going skiing. E may not have as many days as he thought off from work, and that's one day he for sure has. He promised me we'd go skiing once this winter, and that may be our only chance. Plus the fact that I am sleeping in town for 3-4 days that week, as E's parents will be out of town, and it's stupid for me to run back and forth. So I suggested maybe the 20th the Wednesday night, and she has to consult with my father. I hope it's that night. I'd rather go out mid-week to not ruin my plans for skiing. I haven't skied in a couple of years and I finally have someone who will take me, and I may have to cancel because my mom is being stubborn. There are so many other good days to go, and it's ridiculous already.

Argh... I am so irritated over the situation.... Emotionally yesterday was a good day. Today, is a very very bad depressed day. I am so aggravated with life, with things, and it's starting to piss me off. Argh! I feel bad about myself on days like today, and I just wish my life were different. I don't know. Today is just a bad bad day. I am going to go shower to let myself cool down.

Too Early For Me

I didn't get enough sleep last night, and already both my parents have called my line, waking me up to tell me..

Mom: "Wake up, when you hear the doorbell ring, please let Anna (our housekeeper) in. I am at the doctor's office, I wanted to get there early, it's nasty out there."

And my dad... who called from work, and still can't figure out why, because both my parents didn't need to call, but here's the jift of it anyways...

Dad: "Anna's coming soon, please let her in when she gets there, as your mother is out."

So I was like, yea, dad, I know that, mom just called...

I guess he was bored at work or something. Or just wanted to bug the shit out of me. Who knows. But what's annoying to me, is that the doorbell just could have woken me up, but no, they had to call me at 8:57 am and wake me, and Anna's not even here yet... and it's 9:36 am.

I could have and 39 + more minutes of sleep! Argh! That's almost an hour's more worth of sleep. That would have done me some good. But that's ok, I set a tape in the VCR in our den, to tape the movie The Patriot. That's the one with Heath Ledger (MMMmmm! Love him, love his accent) and Mel Gibson (Love him, love his eyes). I hate watching a movie straight off the TV, cuz you can't pause or go to the bathroom without missing something. So, that's why, I tape things, including TV shows, and watch them when I can fast forward commercials and pause for pee breaks! Ha! Got them there! They thought they'd be educating me with their products by their fancy commercials... Well, my friend, they are wrong. I don't watch their freakin' commercials!

I started another load of laundry. I feel like all I ever do is laundry. I have one more medium load to do after the one that is in. I am going to work probably anytime around 2-3pm today. I don't start technically until 5pm but I want to go in early and make a few extra bucks. Money is good! Especially since I didn't work last Thursday because I took off because of school papers that I had to write and hand in the next day.

Well at least so far I know that I passed 2 of the 3 things that I was working on. I still can't believe that my teacher never posted out my papers for me to retrieve them and she hasn't called, and I'd love for my marks. That would be sweet. But no, she's being a biatch.. argh! Whatever, I am never taking her as a teacher ever again! I am still in war with my timetable book. SO many classes that I want to take, but don't know when, or how or what... The few classes that I do want to take, conflict in times with one another. I hate that. It's so annoying. But that's ok. I will work around it. Chances are anyhow, it will come to registration time and the classes that I want to take will be full, so what use will that be. And I have to speak to my doctor to get me a not about Phys. Ed. Because I can't take anything to physical. I wouldn't be able to handle it. My asthma kills me sometimes. And the doctor's out there seem to be taking their sweet time to do anything about better treatment for me. Argh! I guess I just will have to bitch my way through to get what I need and deserve! If that's the way they want to play it...

Well I am going to crawl back into bed for a bit. Just one look outside will drive anyone back to bed! We must have gotten about 8-10 cm of snow over night. They were calling for 10 cm anyhow. I don't know how anyone in their right mind would want to leave their house on a day like today. Oh well... It's mad driving out there.

I Hate School Decisions & Martha Stewart

I can't sleep and the only thing that is on, is Martha Fucking Stewart. She pisses me off. She's all like, making this cake is so easy, as one two three, and yet it takes her the entire episode to figure out that it's already made by someone else. Seriously! Since I couldn't sleep, first I poured myself a bowl of Corn Pops. It wasn't so bad. I think they are a little old. I wonder how long the box was sitting in the pantry for. I am going to ask my mom to get Apple & Cinnamon Cheerios the next time she goes to the grocery store. I love that cereal. It's great!

And now I am sitting here drinking 7up Light and was going thru my table time for next semester. There are only a select few classes I want to take, and some of them conflict. But yet, I really want to take those classes, but can't. Argh. I wish they didn't conflict with the other ones I want to take. Why is deciding about school so freckin' difficult. That's going to keep me up all night. I just want to fall asleep, but can't.

I don't know how E is always falling asleep. I wish I knew!! I want the secret... So I am debating between Newspaper Writing and Children's Lit and Education In Transition and Drawing and Creative Expression and Collage. Because one of them won't fit the schedule with the other classes. So one of these I must delete. I will probably take out Newspaper Writing and do that in my last semester. There is no way I want extra stress next semester. I don't need that! And with Education in Transition (the only Humanities Class I want to take that is offered this semester) it conflicts with Drawing and Creative Expression but I really want to take a class with that teacher. I had her this semester for painting. She's the teacher I went to her house for her little party the other day, remember? (see one of Monday's Entries). She's an awesome teacher.

Ok, I am going to go sleep on it. It's 2:33 am and I should get some kind of sleep!

Childrens Lit, Ed & My Cozy Bed

What a good day I’ve had. And I think I am going to go to bed early tonight. I taped ED which was on NBC this evening and I am going to watch it and fall asleep. I am cold since I just had a long drive home from my boyfriends house (about a 30 minute drive as there was a bit of traffic due to an accident on the expressway) and I had some stuff to bring in from my car to the house, but brrrrr, is it cold out there. I chilled with my boyfriend a bit this evening, that was nice. We were cuddling and ... well the rest is none of your business!! Hee hee...

I downloaded the newest version of the Palm Pilot Desktop for my boyfriend as he saw it the other day on my computer and wanted it for his. So I did that for him. I don't know why he couldn't do it himself, but I guess he enjoyed watching me get frustrated at the computer and swear at it since it wasn't doing what I wanted it to. Maybe that turns him on... Who knows!!

I am debating on what classes to take next semester.. Different ones are offered each semester and I don't know which ones I want to take next semester, since who knows if they will be offered the semester after that. You follow? Anyhow, I don't know some of the teachers and want to inquire about them first... That is the way to go! I know that for sure I want to take children's literature and newspaper writing so that I can write for the college's newpaper. Under a pen name of course because I have a stalker at school. I will tell you about that another time. Not in the mood to type that story. I will type it out for you tomorrow, how's that? Well I am going to crawl into my cozy warm bed which is awaiting me!

Too Many Appointments To Make

So I went to school and picked up my timetable for next semester. I even found parking right in front and there was leftover money in the meter. So that was lucky. I went and checked to see if my teacher had posted my paper outside her door like she promised, but nope, it's still not there. Oh well, I am going to leave another message on her machine, that's not right of her to not leave my paper for me, like she had promised. Then I went to that appointment with the specialist for my asthma. I have to go for a pulmonary test on January 31st, 2001, no appointments sooner! And I have to go for an allergy test, but the doctor and his nurse weren't there today, so that appointment I have to make. I will call probably tomorrow, or something. I bet I won't be able to make an appointment for that until next year, either. And I have to go back to see this doctor in 6 weeks. Too many doctors and appointments to make! Argh! I hate running around...

So now I am back at my boyfriend's house, and his parents just got home. He's at work. I am going to go look at the tabletime and see how many classes I have to take next semester but don't want to, bleh! Later.

Morning Blues

I really don't want to leave my house, but I have to go down to school and pick up the course timetable book for next semester, what a bummer that is. That means I have to drive all the way downtown... And, I have an apt at 3:10pm with some doctor to see what tests I need for my asthma which is getting worse all the time, I feel it. But I just don't feel like leaving my house. I am so bored. I do nothing these days that school is now out. I am so bored with things. I find that I spend useless time surfing the web for nothing. I don't know, it's weird. I need to work out this winter break. Even if I have to force myself to do it, I am started to get even more depressed over how badly out of shape I am. I am depressed as it is, and I don't know why. I can't pinpoint the reason. And no one is helping me sort that out. I binge on fattening foods all the time now, and there isn't proper food in my house to begin with. I feel as though there is never any food in my house for me to eat, and the food that we do have takes millions of years to whip together, and I am not the best of cooks to begin with, so there is one of my problems.

My dance teacher is supposed to email me my mark before she takes off to Europe and I am very impatient, and I want to know my mark, so that's not helping any. She emailed me and told me that she is 27 hours behind work, and that she hasn't even gotten to the marks yet. Our dance class is her only class at school, and she works elsewhere the rest of her time. She's adorable :)

Anyhow, I've got to go get ready. I technically should leave in about 27 minutes to get going into town. I hope there's not bad traffic. I hate traffic. One of my largest pet peeves. I don't even want to leave my house. I just want to crawl back into bed. Grrr!

ps~ maybe tomorrow will be a brighter day. who knows?!

Depressed Is Not The Way To Be...

I have very depressed lately and I don't know what to blame it on. I am binging like mad on junk food and I am gaining weight because of it, I can feel it. I don't know what's causing it, and I want to get to the bottom of this all. That would be nice, once and for all. I don't know if is something that just happens at this time of the year. I remember getting very depressed last year at this time, but then again I was single and all alone. This year I have E, who doesn't really seem to understand. Oh well. Maybe one day he will catch on. I love him to pieces, I just wish men would get this stuff.

Argh... The worst is to leave me alone with my thoughts. That is so dangerous. Never do that!!! I am NOT suicidal, and NEVER will be, because I am afraid of pain. I would NEVER be able to do such a thing, and that's my thoughts and opinion on that... end of story... I don't know what I am going to do with myself this holidays. What is there to do. I don't feel like working extra hours because I dont' want to work anymore than I have to. I need a project to work on, something to keep me busy.

Feeling Good ... School is Over!

My french exam went pretty well. I am impressed with the way I handled myself during the exam. I was not stressed, nor was I doing the test in a rush so I could get out of there. I used to do that. Do an exam really quickly and not think things through. I guess that is why I didnt get good marks in those classes...That was the past, now is the future, and now it's time to move on! I went and got my art literature mark which was posted on the teacher's board right outside her office. It was just our student ID numbers and our marks. They don't post your name on there, and I think that's smart. Anyhow, my mark... is 83% and I am pretty impressed with that mark. While I was hoping I'd get around an 85% I can't complain!

On my way out of school, after my exam, I bumped into this girl I used to work with, Bree and we ended up going to East Side Mario's for lunch. I like that restaurant, it's fun. Anyhow, we had a good lunch, I was totally starving, hadn't eaten all day long, and I think I ate it too fast, because now my tummy aches... bleh! As we were leaving, Bree left her cell number and her email address on a napkin and now we just want to see if our cute waiter will call her or email her!! We'll see. I will keep you posted on that! She told me that she had never done anything as daring and out there as that, and I said there's always a first for everything. Life is definitely too short to avoid opportunities like that one!!

When I got home there was a message waiting on my answering machine from my creative writing teacher. I wasn't going to wait around school for hours to get my manuscript back (Because of the snow storm, I wanted to get home) so I left the teacher a message and he actually called me back in pretty good timing. Anyhow, I got my marks in his class, and they are, 80% on my final manuscript. So with my 80% on my mid-term portfolio and my 86% on my end of term portfolio, my final mark is now... drum roll please.... 84% I am surely doing good this semester! I want to go out this weekend to celebrate. I told E that I want to, and I think I may get my wish! :) Let's see if he uses any romantic energy and takes me out as a surprise :) If not, I know where I want to go...

So an update..
Painting ... 82%
Art Literature ... 83%
Creative Writing ... 84%
and...
Dance ... undecided ... hoping for 85% +
French ... took exam this morning ... hoping for an 80% +
Autobiography ... undecided ... hoping for a 65% +

Now I am at home, just chilling. I need some chill time. I think I am going to pick up a book shortly. Get some reading done!

Snow Storm

So many classes are canceled this morning, and it's not fair that my college never closes. Completely not fair!! I keep listening to the local radio station, but no, 23 cm of snow is not enough to cancel the exam.

I am at E's house right now. My exam starts in 2.5 hours and I am bored out of my mind. I've been up since 5:45 am, and that's when E left to work. I got up to go to the bathroom when he was just finishing up in the bathroom in the morning. I like leaving him little surprises, so I left him 2 last night. One by his toothbrush, so he'd get my note in the morning and another note in his lunch bag, so he'd get it when he took out one of his 3 sandwiches he made for his lunch. So thoughtful, I know :) See, the little things in life do count! After going to the bathroom, I got some water and then went back to bed. I cuddled up under the blankets, bbbrrr was it cold, and I drifted off into sleep for about an hour. After that, I just got up and started to get ready for school. There was no point in chilling in bed any longer...

I have to leave to get to school soon, since it's a mad mess out there on the streets. I hate when there is too much snow. A little snow is ok, but too much? Now, that's ridiculous...

Wish me luck! Exam time..

So Edgy, Don't Know Why...

I hit a little rough spot this evening. I don't know why, but I was feeling very insecure. Anyhow, E came in and held me and reassured me that he loves me and that everything's going to be ok. And now, I can't sleep! I hate it, sometimes I get really bad insomnia. GRRR!

Totally off subject...Here are some books I recommend.

*The G-d Project by John Saul
*Flowers in the Attic by V.C. Andrews
*My Sweet Audrina by V.C. Andrews
*Baby Come Back by Maeve Haran
*She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb
*Where The Heart Is by Billie Letts
*Sis Boom Bah by Jane Heller
*Crystal Clear by Jane Heller
*ChaChaCha by Jane Heller
*Changes by Danielle Steel
*The Gift by Danielle Steel
*Granny Dan by Danielle Steel
*The Long Road Home by Danielle Steel
*Malice by Danielle Steel
*Go Ask Alice by Anonymous
*Summer Sisters by Judy Blume

and that's all for now. More to come later. When I think of them that is!!

Self Day

I went to bed last night at 5 am! I couldn't sleep. I ended up staying up and downloading programs for my palm pilot. Now I have some pretty nifty games on there! So I never have to be bored on the metro, at the doctor's office or in line, ever again! I downloaded some fun stuff like Tetris, and so forth! Some good stuff. I figured I may as well use my time productively and benefit from it :)

Today, boy did I sleep in! I mean, going to bed at 5 am and getting up early? You've got to be kidding me! And when I got up I did laundry and checked the mail! I got a pacakge in the mail from my friend in Texas! I love getting packages! This one had tons of Scooby doo things. I absolutely love scoobydoo. I got scooby doo socks and scooby doo stationery, and this gorgeous organizer, but unfortunately I've got my palm pilot and I like that system, so I am going to stick with my palm. Another other agenda I've gotten from school, never lasts the entire year. I never use them. Don't know why. I guess I am just not an organized person, but that's ok. That's one of my new year's resolutions. Did tons of laundry today. I had like no clothes left. I generally do laundry once a week. That's my usual routine. Clean underwear is always good!

Late afternoon I ended up at my teacher's house for her little party. She was so cute about everything. She supplied us with food, and alcohol (weird, I know) and the few of us that were there, we had a good time. We danced, talked, ate, and I ditched out early to get over to E's house. I didn't want to lie, but I told her I wasn't feeling so well. I didn't really want to stay any longer, I had been there for almost 3.5 hours at that point anyhow, and just wanted to crawl into bed and cuddle with my boy :) So that's just what I did. I gave my teacher the little gift I picked out for her, and that was the end of that! She told me that she needs me to help her out with her computer as soon as she gets back from working Club Med, she teaches art. I think that's awesome! So anyhow, she said she'd even pay me. Hey, sounds like a plan. I don't mind doing extra odd jobs to rake in some extra cash! :)

Now I am at E's, just chilling. I will write more later. I think we are about to eat dinner.

~Reasons Why I Love You~

Since it’s winter break for me, (almost, plus a French exam) I have plenty of time to do my arts and crafts. I started (and almost finished) the overdue scrapbook that I am making my boyfriend. I will be giving it to him tomorrow, as I am sleeping at his house again :) It’s just more convenient for my exam on Tuesday. Plus, I am going to my teacher’s house tomorrow for her little Party. I have no idea what that’s all about! Anyhow! For my boyfriend’s scrapbook, I wrote him a poem… It’s cheesy, and it rhymes and I suck at poetry, but it’s all good, and he will like it, so it’s all good!

Reasons Why I Love You
You’re fun to be with,
You’re sweet as can be,
You’re cute as a button,
And you love me.
You keep my secrets,
You make me laugh when I am sad,
You are smart and athletic,
You look sexy when you are mad.
You encourage me when I am frustrated,
You help me succeed and move on,
You remembered my birthday,
You know how to shake your bon-bon.
We can talk on the phone for hours on end,
You always give me wake-up calls,
You make me feel loved,
You even took me to Niagara Falls.

So I hope you like my little poem! It’s cheesy as hell I know! I’ve been meaning to finish his scrapbook up for over 2 months now, but school got in the way and came first, unfortunately!! I am presenting it to him tomorrow, along with a little gift. I am getting him, a frame and putting in this gorgeous picture of the two of us.

Anyhow, more later.. Just wanted to share my poem with you!

Palm V & Beaver Tails

I went to Price Club this morning with my boyfriend and his parents. They've slowly been coming out of the house and doing things (his father had a quadruple bypass and his mother had breast cancer, and they have been recovering wonderfully) and that's good for them! I picked up some VHS tapes because I a) needed new ones and b) I wanted some 8 hour tapes instead of 6 hour ones. Then we went into FutureShop (my boyfriend and I) and we bought an answering machine for my sister, for her birthday. Her birthday is Dec. 19th, and she had her party already in November. She had one of those big blow out parties, as it will be her 16th birthday. Her party was fun. I got some great photos. Anyhow, I am impatient to give it to her. I left it in her room with a note on it, as we got her a card for her party. Didn't want to go completely empty handed. I was going to make her wait until her birthday to give her the answering machine, but since I bought it already, I may as well let her use it, right? I want the Palm Pilot V. I have the Palm Pilot III and without it I would be even more disorganized! Right now my disorganization is pretty bad... Imagine me without it! I can't. Anyhow, the V is way nicer than the III and my III is giving me troubles. Sometimes some of the buttons stick. I don't even know where I could go to get customer service. No idea! I got the Palm as a birthday gift when I turned 18. It was a nice present from my dad.

Went to see my boyfriend's hockey game, and I brought along my camera with my black and white film. I want to finish that roll already. Anyhow, I was taking some pictures and only took a few. But E decided to get stubborn and yell at me from on the ice to put the camera away. He yelled it so rudely I was embarrassed. There were other people in the stands, including E's father, and a few other guys who were playing hockey right after, but that I know, through E. Anyhow, if he would have asked nicely, like, "could you please put away the camera, the flash is distracting the players" then I would have been a happy camper, but that's not the way it happened. It was "PUT AWAY THE CAMERA NOW..." and that pissed me off! So I turned my back to the rink and didn't watch the rest of the game. It's too bad I didn't have my car with me, I would have left, honestly, I was that pissed off. E's dad told me to leave it alone, but whatever... I wanted to be stubborn. After hockey we worked things out, thank goodness. It was good that we got everything out in the open. He was the one who came to me, and told me that he doesn't like to see me upset. That was so reassuring :)

For dinner, we went to Toyo, this Japanese Steak House. That was nice. We went with two of E's friends, this couple that we've been out with before. E's friend Dave is going out with Jody. Anyhow I was searching through my purse for something and took out the things that were on top, one being my Palm Pilot. Jody took out hers, and we swapped (beamed) over programs. We were having a blast. There was this table of jappy girls next to us. The sad thing, is that I know some of them, they go to my school. No one that I would be friends with, though. That's a good thing.

After dinner we went to see the movie Proof of Life. That's the one with Meg Ryan and Russell Crowe. We all enjoyed it. Too many guns and stuff like that, but what can you do! I don't like that sort of thing. Wish it would be eliminated. I had a beaver tail instead of regular popcorn during the movie. I hate popcorn. So boring. I felt the beaver tail going down though. All the fattening shit that's in it!! And all that sugar, mmmm!

Dave is a goofball. He is the type of guy, when drunk, you don't want to know him, yet you want to see the goofy shit he does!! He had this tape in the car that we were listening to, from times when he used to call this radio station that some friends used to work at. He'd call (it's a sports show) and chat with the guys live on the air, in a disguised voice. At first they had no idea who he was, but then they figured him out, and went along with it. Dave had to have like 2 full tapes in his car or something. We were all laughing hysterically. All in all, I had a good time. I love going out on double dates. It makes me feel older and more sophisticated. Don't ask. I don't know! I am starting to get into a really good mood :) I hope it never ends!!!

E invited me to stay with him for a couple of day during the last week of December. I think I am going to do that. His parents may be going to Albany, NY for a couple of days, to get away for a bit. So I want to plan some fun things for E and I do to!

Off to bed, I said.. I have to work tomorrow, Bleh!

Beer & The Nutty Professor

I went to my boyfriend's work's xmas party dinner, with him this evening. It was fun. I had too much beer though, and I am generally not a beer fan. I like more cocktail drinks (sex on the beach, etc...) My boyfriend said since I was not driving and the food was crappy (we were at a Portuguese Restaurant and there wasn't much for me to eat being a vegetarian and all...) that I could have as much beer as I would like. And I held him to that! The guys at the Xmas party, were telling me all evening that I had a hard working boyfriend and that I should keep him! ;) I thought that was cute... :) They were also telling me that I should feed him! Feed him? He may be thin (not skimpy thin, but thin with muscles from his working out in sports!) but when I am with him, whether we be eating out, or staying in, he eats a lot. He will buy a container of cookie dough ice cream, and polish the entire thing off in one sitting. Maybe he doesn't have time or the appetite to eat during work. Who knows. There could be a million different reasons behind his not eating at work. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it, from here. They also told, in French of course, they are mostly all French people, that I should keep him! How adorable that they approve of me :)

Back at E's house we watched the Nutty Professor II, we picked it up at Blockbuster's along with a thing of cookie dough ice cream which he pretty much polished off. That's ok. We were both exhausted, and didn't see the end of the movie. We both fell asleep. I love falling asleep in his arms. That is the best feeling. I love it. It makes me feel safe. Now we're upstairs and I am using the computer in his room. He's passed out in his bed. I had a good day today. A very happy day.

Grandpa's P0rn

Today, I was really not feeling well. I don't know what got into me. I hate being a woman! Especially this time of the month. Grr... and I am sleeping at my boyfriend's house tonight, argh, that sucks...next time, oh well... Nookie is not the only thing our relationship is based on! Don't worry! There's more to it than that... Nookie is just an added bonus. Plus once you start, you can't stop! Hee hee!

I got my art literature mark on that project I worked on last night. I was in the room when our teacher was marking them, and she asked me what I thought I deserved. Stupid me said Uh, Like a 21 or 22 (on 25 by the way...) I should have said higher! Like 23! Cuz then that would have brought up my mark. Cuz so far, I have {15/20 (I know I could have done better on that assignment, but I was busy with another paper for school and neglected that one! Bad! Bad!); 17/20; 17/20; 5/5; 22/25} So, so far, my mark equals out to... 76% of 90% of my final mark. So she has 10% for participation and classroom etiquette to work with. So hopefully, I will get full marks for that, I believe I am deserving of it, so maybe my mark will end up being an 86%... If I get 8% or 9% so my marks ends up being an 84% or an 85% and my goal was an 85% for that class, so I will be satisfied. Maybe she'll be nice and give me an 85% or 86%. I will find out Tuesday, when she leaves them posted on her door. I am dying to know what my final mark is though. Totally pissing me off! I am so impatient, it's unbelievable...

I got my Creative Writing Portfolio back from my teacher. I went to his office when he so happened to be there. He handed me back my work, and I got a nice 86% on my portfolio. That's an improvement from my mid-term portfolio in which I got an 80% flat. I am very happy with my portfolio mark. Teacher says I've been working better at my imagery and description, and that's where I have improved. Noted! I am just awaiting my final manuscript, which was handed in this morning. He said I can pick it up from his office on Tuesday anytime after 1pm. I am going to hang around the school after my exam because I want my portfolio back, and also, my marks! I am going to leave a message on my teachers machine and see if they will be so kind enough to call me with my mark. I can see if I can persuade my teachers into leaving my marks on my answering machine. That would be nice of them :) I am going to go leave them messages now! Hopefully they will get back to me!

One more thing before I get offline for now! I was over at my dad's parents house for a little while earlier. I figured that since I don't get to see them often, that I would stop by for a visit. Anyhow, my grandmother fed me of course (European Jewish Grandmother) and then my grandfather came home... He wanted me to help him find a game on the Internet he had and lost. It was an easy task. Anyhow, so I decided to go an help him. Guess what ended up happening...? As I was checking my grandfather's database, you know the favorites list... To see if he accidentally saved the link and forgot... I noticed what his other saved sites were... you want to know what? P0RN! Yes, you heard me... P0rn0graphy. EW... SICK! I know!! I didn't say anything, but I did call up my dad afterwards to ask him! What was I supposed to say... do... act? Oy! Anyhow, I don't want to think about that anymore...

G'day

My painting class was fun this semester. And extra fun this morning! So my final painting mark is 82%. I am satisfied. I thought I had an 80%. So an extra 2% rocks my boat! We had that breakfast party this morning in that class... The teacher brought us champagne and VODKA! Only 2 of us did shot of Vodka. It was fun. And the other girl, who did Vodka with me, isn't even in my class. She's in my painting teacher's Tuesday class and the teacher invited her to my class.

We started talking and I made a new friend. But she looked very familiar to me. I couldn't place her at first... But she figured it out, we met at a party back in the summer of 1999. A party that my parents had no idea I was at. So, we talked about the people we both knew (she dated a guy that used to work for my dad as a technician {computers} and she is friends with a bunch of other people that I know from work as well. It's such a small world. Our teacher picks her favorites. I am glad that I am one of them... Even though my paintings suck!! That's ok. So my painting teacher invited a select few of us over to her house on Monday for a party. Since I have nothing better to do, I think I am going to go. More alcohol!!! I think I may end up staying at my boyfriends that night, since I have my French exam the next day and I want to sleep in and get a good night's rest. Plus he lives in town, so it will be faster to get to school. We'll see if my parents let me sleep over there. I am sleeping at his house tonight, so I don't see why... plus I am 19, and have been of legal age for over 1.5 yrs now, so I technically have the right to do what I want, but I am driving their car, and live under their roof, so they do have some say :) At least I have some freedom...

I just bumped into my Art Lit teacher (I have her class in 22 minutes) and I showed her my art project that is due. She loves it. I think I am going to get a good mark in her class. I think I should find out today what my final mark is in her class. That will be good. I am expecting a nice 85% + so that's good. Wow, I really did well this semester, thank goodness. I needed that. So here's what I know so far :)

Painting - 82% Final Mark ...and this is what I estimate give or take...
Dance - 85% + (undecided)
Art Lit - 85% + (undecided will know by 2pm for sure :)
French - 80% + (won't know til after exam on Tuesday.)
Creative Writing - 80% + (undecided - handing in manuscript in 10 minutes)
Autobiography - 65% + (undecided)

It took me forever to get a computer today in the labs. I think everyone is cramming to get all their final papers done and stuff. But I finally got a computer and the line up is still long!! I think I am going to finish this up so I can let someone else use the computer. I will write later and let you know how I did in my Art Lit Class :)

That Stressing Question...

Am I where I thought I'd be at this point in my life? I am supposed to be finishing my first semester in University, but I am in College still. Now it's no big deal, but I am three semesters behind. I actually honestly feel that I am not ready for University. I feel that I am in the right place, does that make any sense? I have no idea... Anyhow, I am loving life, things, etc.. Love... I just recently in the past 8 months learned how to love. This is a fucked up question, sorry!

On My Way To Relaxation...

Well, finally, I am sitting here, and my 2 papers are done (my angela's ashes paper and my creative writing manuscript) and as well, my art project. It's going to feel good tomorrow, handing everything in! Finally!! I can't wait. School, is ALMOST officially over. After tomorrow all I will have to deal with, is that dumb French exam that I have to take on Tuesday. But that I am not studying for. Well, i can't really study for it in the first place. How can you study for something when you don't know what the material is on? French is my second language. I've known French since Kindergarten. So.... all I have to do on my exam is read a text and answer questions. Then apparently I have to write a 100 word composition. How hard can that be? I hope not too hard!!! I need to get a decent mark in French. I need my average to stay up!! :) We find out marks next Friday. Apparently that's when they are going to be posted online. I wonder if I can call the phone grade line any earlier than that... I guess I will have to dig deep and find where I put my timetable book from this past semester. All the dates and times for things like that should be posted in there...

Tomorrow night I am going with my boyfriend to his work Christmas Party/Dinner. Should be fun. I have like 5 outfits I am deciding upon... I don't know what to wear... I am going over to my boyfriend's house after work, so that's the plan... I am also sleeping over 'chez lui' :) Should be fun. He's got cable modem as well, so I should be able to drop some entries online while staying at his house ;) Well I am off to blow dry my hair (yup, that's correct, just got out of a shower ;)

Almost Done...What A Relief!

What a Relief... My creative writing final manuscript has been finished, typed, and put together. It's a good thing that I looked at the guideline for it, because I forgot that I had to include a 400-500 word introduction to my work, add a Table of Contents, but I knew that I had to include my rough draft and as well, make a title page. It was hard writing an introduction to my work. But I got that over with, and I am impressed with my final work. It had to be a creative writing piece over 3,000 words. I came up with a piece called The Ritz. It was fun. Then I finished my Angela's Ashes Paper. Wow, that was a toughie. I love leaving things to last minute. I did get some help from some friends and as well from some people on OD, but it was tough putting it all together. That essay had to be 1,000 words. For both my manuscript and this essay I went over the word minimum, so that's good. Teachers hate it, I think, when you cut off an essay at the bare minimum... In my opinion, that is... It feels so good to have most of my work done. I am not worried about my art project. That I know I can have finished by tomorrow. It was the written work that I was worried about, but now that it is done, Such a relief... A weight taken off my shoulders... AHHHH!! I can relax once again...

Now I am waiting for my Gattuso to be ready... I live on those little soup things... MMMmmm soup with noodles. My fave. I love pasta! And then when I am done eating, I am going to go finish up the art project that I have due tomorrow, that I just started on. I am working with a shoe box that has a lid attached to it. Don't ask. I am kind of turning it into a television set. Sort of. I got this idea out of the book. It's all good. We have to work with the 'story book' idea.

Anyhow, my food smells ready! Smell ya later!