Mack is 4 weeks old today.
This morning I took the boys to music in the park. I ran a few minutes late because I tried again to shove the double stroller in my trunk with no luck. Yep, the darn thing won't fit into my trunk. I am really not sure what I'm supposed to do when I need the double stroller and can't take it with? And the stroller I got is 20% smaller than all double strollers out on the market. Imagine I didn't get this one, any other would definitely NOT fit. I need a bigger car, but I refuse to be a mini-van mom. Something in between suits me just fine!
Today he also went to the doctor to get weighed again. That's the only thing we did at the appointment today. We wanted to make sure he was gaining a good amount of weight after the tongue-tie clipping we two weeks ago. His doctor is going on vacation tomorrow for a month, and I'm glad everything is okay, otherwise we'd have to be followed by another doctor while she was away. I told her my goal weight for Mack was 50 grams per day. His last weigh in was at 3060g and 50 grams per day would bring Mack to 3410 grams. What did he weigh in today at? 3400 grams. CLOSE ENOUGH! He gained 48.5 grams per day over the last week. That's damn good! So now, Mack weighs 10 grams shy of 7 lbs and 8 oz which is 7 and a half pounds. I'm so proud of him.
I also remembered to ask her what percentile he was born in. He was born in the 10th percentile. (This is an improvement for me, as Sean was born in the 5th percentile). And today, at 7 and a half pounds, Mack is still in the 10th percentile. I am not worried though, as Sean is today (and has been for a while now) in the 50th percentile. So Mack will catch up, I'm sure. The only difference is that Sean was formula fed (was half formula and half breast milk fed (pumping) until 6 weeks but after my milk ran dry, it was only formula he was getting), and Mack is exclusively nursing right now. We'll see how fast Mack catches up to the 50th percentile.
These are the only slippers that Mack's tiny feet fit into. I have a ton of slippers/sandals/shoes for Mack once his tiny feet are a little bit bigger. But right now, I'll keep them warm with these little bunnies. How adorable!
This is the ring that I got in 2 different colors the other day when I went out to get the shoes. Aren't they fabulous??? I just love them. They are fun to dress up & dress down!
This evening I got some knitting done (trying to make more knitting time lately) and I also started to read The 7 O'Clock Bedtime by Inda Schaenen. After reading the first couple of pages, it seems that I'm doing EVERYTHING wrong with my children. Everything the experts say NOT to do, apparently I do it. From TV watching, to bedtime, to daily activities, to you name it... I do it wrong. According to them, I've got bad parenting skills. Do I think I'm doing things wrong? Yes, but NOT to that extent. I must be doing some things right that Sean turned out okay. Obviously I want to make some changes so that Mack doesn't get bad sleeping habits, and I want to change Sean's routine so that he goes to bed at a decent hour, but I didn't think I was doing things that off course. Anyhow, the book is only 150 pages, so I'm going to stick with it, and go with the flow. Just because I'm reading it, doesn't mean I have to take the advice in the end if I think it'll not work for us, but I'll give it a chance.
Well, you already know that I am having my doubts about it. Don't get me wrong, I think that it's better than formula for Mack to be drinking it. That's why with Sean I tried to pump as much as I could until my milk ran dry, since I couldn't get him to latch, I still wanted him to have breast milk for as long as I could provide it to him (which was until he was 6 weeks old).
My issues right now:
One is that only I can feed Mack. Obviously Jamie can't feed him. There are times when Sean just wants to cuddle with me before bed, and I can't because I'm nursing Mack. Jamie wishes he could help out, but I'm not pumping yet, (I'm worried about feeding Mack a bottle and him not wanting to go back on the breast afterwards).
Another issue is nursing in public. I don't like to do it. I don't feel comfortable doing it. I don't have a choice sometimes, as I have to feed Mack. The nursing wrap is annoying as it's hard to get Mack to latch back - sometimes he pulls himself off of me in the middle of nursing and to get him back on, I have to see what I'm doing. So what's the point of the nursing wrap if I have to expose myself to get him to latch back. While I don't find there anything to be wrong with nursing in public, and while it's more and more common these days for women to nurse in public, as well as there be places of business that have nursing areas, etc... I just don't know if it's for me. So what do I do in that case? Stay home until I'm done nursing? Who knows how many months that will be? And on another note with nursing in this regard, I feel that Mack is just constantly on my boob, and I never get out of the house anyhow... so maybe I won't be doing a lot of nursing in public to begin with...
Time. Nursing sucks a lot of time. I remember feeding Sean his bottles, I knew exactly how much he was getting, and it would take maybe 10 minutes to feed him. Nursing Mack can be 10-15 sometimes 20 minutes per side, and that's if it satisfies him. Sometimes I've had him latched for a total of almost an hour between both sides. (Growth spurts?) And while I'm nursing Mack I can't do much else besides watch TV or read. (The middle of the night feeding, I'm pretty much half asleep feeding him. I've woken up in the morning with myself still exposed because he latched on somehow in the middle of the night, drank what he wanted and then fell asleep). Now, if he had just had a bottle, it would be bing-bang-done, and back to his bassinet. The middle of the night feedings are the ones that are the most brutal. Oh gosh, are they brutal. I forgot about the waking up every 2-3 hours to feed a newborn when I decided to get pregnant again!
Then there's the discomfort. I thought you weren't supposed to feel the nursing, so says a friend of mine. But when I mentioned this to Mack's doctor today, she told me that I should be feeling him on my breast, because if I wasn't then he wasn't latched on my breast properly and probably wasn't eating properly. Though, even though he's latched on properly, there are times on my left side only that I feel discomfort when nursing him. This discomfort is a slight pain. I don't get why I'm having it, even though his doctor has made sure he's latching properly and all that jazz.... I don't really want to be in discomfort while nursing him for however long we stick to nursing. (I can't see myself going past 6 months of nursing, if it lasts that long).
I don't know how long I'm going to last nursing. I know that I want to give Mack the same 6 weeks that Sean got (though Sean was supplemented with formula). At 6 weeks (in 2 weeks time), I'll re-evaluate my thoughts/opinions and see where I stand with nursing, and see if the nursing perhaps takes less time then I'll maybe stick with it. Don't get me wrong, there are tons of pros to breastfeeding as well. (Like being able to feed my child on demand without having to prep a bottle, the nutrients and good stuff that a child cannot get from formula, even as much as it says it's "just like breast milk" or "the next best thing".
I think that's it for now on the subject. I can't think of anything that I've left out. If I do, I'll be sure to share it later on when I remember. For now, it's up in the air... I neither love it nor hate it. What's your opinion on nursing? How long did you nurse your kids for? Are you still currently nursing? What's your opinion with nursing in public? Do you pump as well? After what age did you start giving your child a bottle with breast milk?